ok, i have another thing to put on my list of things to do before i die....go see a live taping of Conan...wow that would totally rock...i would love to meet Conan too...and Max (and the 7), and Joel....but i'd settle for just watching a taping.
so, the list to date is:
- visit Amsterdam
- learn to cook with marijuana
- own either a hippie-esque VW bus or a hearse painted Barbie pink or lipstick red
- attend a live taping of Conan
- see Garbage in concert
- hug a penguin
- see Rammstein live in Germany
- make a wedding cake
- explore the western US

its snowing...AGAIN. i have no idea how long its been snowing for tho...its about 2:15 in the p.m. right now and i only woke up at 1...but i'm sick of seeing it. seriously, at least it could come in different colors. like with different flavors for each color. that would be sweet. but nooooo, its just boring white, boring no-flavored white and i'm tired of looking at it.

oh...its Wednesday, which means yesterday was Tuesday, which means i didn't do Crappy Poetry Tuesday!!! so heres a quick little piece of crap for everyone. for some reason i thought it would be a good idea to write a poem and deliberately use the wrong verb forms. so, from December 12, 2000...

Bloodstains
bloodstains they make me laughing
homicidal i'm not crazy
only suicidal and depressed
if you don't understanding
if i am not so clearer
bloodstains don't stop me to cry
from the screaming i say
i never knew you
well i never knew what the bloodstained
would let me do to me

wow...um...theres nothing i can really say here.

ummmm...kinda tired. made pumpkin chocolate chip cookies today and they're sooooooo yummy. nummy num nums.

i thought of something else for my list of things to do before i die...go skydiving...i think it would be loads of fun. i've always wanted to do it.
my mom used to say that maybe i'd get to go skydiving for a graduation present, but now it looks like any graduation presents i get will be in monetary or appliance/general household item form, since i'm moving out pretty soon after i get my diploma. not that i mind...it would suck having to buy all that stuff myself. my mom already said she'd buy me basic kitchen stuff so i could do all my happy cooking and not have to live off spaghettios, so thats pretty kickass. good old mommy.

so...yeah...i'm sleepy. ever get that feeling when you're sleepy and you're just kinda sitting there and you feel all floaty? i'm kinda getting that, its so weird but its kinda fun, really relaxing.

you know what annoys me? when people spell hamster with a p...you know, hampster. i hate that. its fuckin hamster. no p. i know its confusing cuz you have New Hampshire, which DOES have a p, but still, you should know how to spell New Hampshire. people are pretty ignorant...come on, human race, i know you're smarter than that!! seriously, its like how the majority of Americans don't know where Israel and Iraq are. i had to learn that in seventh grade, i remember Mr G made us take a map test on all the countries of Asia. and even before that i knew where the friggin Middle East was. maybe because i was raised on edutainment and didn't have things like junk food or a tv with a remote. so i got interested in things and learned about them to keep myself occupied. but i know there are plenty people who didn't have to walk across the room and turn the dial if they wanted to channel-surf who also know how to locate countries on a map. so its definitely ignorance. people are just too lazy and ignorant to bother with learning things like basic geography.

and that is why i am half hoping that someone will nuke someone else and the world will explode.