hi. i need a job. please find me a job??? PLEASE??????

wanna know what happened recently? ok, so i see a help wanted ad in the paper for the Subway at Cooks Corner, and i decide to check it out. i go in there and they're definitely hiring, there's a pad of applications on the front counter, so i grab one, leave, fill it out and bring it back a couple days later. they tell me to call the next morning and talk to the manager because i'll have a better chance of getting hired that way. so i called and talked to the manager this morning. she tells me she has my application, asks me what time i can come in to work if i'm hired, and then says SHE'S NOT HIRING. she then tells me to try at the other Subways in town. well i can't even get near one of them since its on the base, so i guess i'm gonna check out the one on Pleasant Street. that was pretty fucked up tho.

so i still need a job. if you can successfully find me one and i get hired, i'll bake you cookies or something because baking desserts is really the only way i know to express anything. but, come on, mmmmmmm...cookies.

waiting waiting waiting...hope everyone's having happy midterms...i'll be back in school on Monday so um maybe yay for that but not really, its gonna blow having to get dressed every other day. and waking up before noon.

well, its technically Tuesday now, and i have about 20 minutes before Conan is on, plus tomorrow i have to pick up Zack at school early so the poor boy doesn't freeze, and before i do that i have to pick up an application at Subway, so i won't have much time before that, sooooooooo....

its time for Crappy Poetry Tuesday!!
i got no response to it last week, and no responses = no complaints, so here we go!!

this is from July 13, 2000.

Blinder Than Blind

Blinder than blind
I stumble
Wander the unforgiving earth
The wind in my face
And the sun far behind
Upside down and inside out
I know only why i've come
But never where i am
I know you're watching me
Longing to follow
But i don't need companionship
And you don't need a friend
If you want to wander
Blinder than blind
Do it alone


that ones not too bad...heres a really really really REALLY awful one. i wrote it on July 16, 2000.

Let

Blink
Let the world stop
Breathe
Let the world go on
Blink
Let the darkness in
Breathe
Let the darkness out
Blink
Let your life go
Breathe
Let your life come back
Blink
Let the world fade to black
Breathe
Let the lights come up
Blink
Let yourself slip away
Breathe
Let yourself come back

sweet baby jesus on toast that was bad.

today is icky. firstly, its a Sunday. secondly, its a cloudy Sunday. thirdly, my mom is making cabbage soup and it smells really gross (i'm sure it actually smells awesome, it smelled ok a few hours ago, but i can't stand cabbage). also, no Zack today. a day without Zack is a sad day indeed.