today totally sucks it. its fucking rainy and gross outside and i've got this super painful cough....a couple days ago i woke up with a sore throat and by the end of the day i was just totally out of it and exhausted, then yesterday i had muscle aches so bad i was limping, and called out of work. my lungs hurt like a bitch, and i've got the whole stuffed up and crampy stomach thing going on. i thought it was a cold at first but maybe its a mini flu or something. whatever it is, it sucks ass, and i can't even do anything about the cough because cough syrup makes me totally trip out and i don't have any codeine left (which is what they give me when i have a bad cough). plus i have to be at Spencers at noon for work and i really don't think i can do it but i already missed 5 hours of work at Goodwill yesterday and i obviously need the money....so i haven't decided what i'm gonna do. i don't even know if i have a fever, i don't think i do but maybe i should get my dad to make sure or something. i'm really not even that sick by most people's standards, i just rarely ever get more than the sniffles, and it never lasts more than a day and a half. but damn am i miserable....and i have cookies to bring to Zack and i promised i'd go to Morning Glory and stock up on Annie's cuz we're all out, but i doubt it'd be a good idea for me to go anywhere. at least i brought my drawing stuff home so i can work on it if i end up staying here, i've done some decent work on Lucretia lately (the comic about the normal little girl with the goth parents and all that shit). so maybe i'll send someone out to get me a couple dvds later so i can watch them and do a little work.

well, my dad just came in and felt my forehead and apparently i'm a little warm so i don't feel so bad about calling out, which is what i'm gonna go do in a few minutes. this sucks cuz today is payday and even if i go to work tomorrow theres really no chance of me getting to the bank before its closed for the weekend, unless i get out at 4 tomorrow or something. even so i might not make it in tomorrow either....as far as i know no one specifically made me sick, i think its just from handling fucking money all day. i try to wash my hands before and after all my breaks and before i leave and shit but apparently it wasnt enough.

oh fuck, i was gonna get a birthday card at work today for my friend Ruth (who i havent talked to in almost a year...she lives in Florida) cuz her birthday is tomorrow but it looks like i wont be able to, i hope i can remember to do it later.

well, i AM supposed to be out at 4 tomorrow, and i told my boss i'd call him tonight if i still felt like shit so he could find someone to work for me tomorrow. hopefully i can make it in tomorrow but i'm not counting on anything right now.

my throat is still being a bitch and i want something cold on it, i bought coconut sorbet last night for it which was good but i dont want anything to eat right now so maybe i'll have to get some ice cubes to suck on. mmmm...ice cubes.

now i am sad that i wont be able to bring zack his cookies. i stayed up much later than i shouldve to make them too...poopy. well, they'll be way cold when he gets them, what with sitting in the fridge all day (they're chocolate macaroons again, which are WAY better when you chill them).

i wish my brother could drive cuz then i'd send him to go get me some dvds....if it werent raining i'd go in my pj's but its super yuck outside.

oh great, now my brother is up and since he doesnt have class today he's gonna be hogging either the ps2 or the computer, whichever i'm not occupied with the most. not fair....since i'm usually not here he always gets both of them....and i'm SICK damnit....grrr. not like i had anything to do on it yet anyway, since i'm totally stuck at the Oogie Boogie boss battle in Kingdom Hearts and we don't have any dvds i want to watch, but now i have to hear him play his gay ass fag games unless i can somehow get him to turn the sound off.

ugh, i wish my mom hadnt worked last night so she could make me stuff and whatnot, but she'll be sleeping for a few more hours. and i dont have anything to do till i can get someone to go to Bart&Gregs for me.