you know what i just thought of...if you read this blog even occasionally, you must know about my longtime crush on Shirley Manson, the awesome, gorgeous and talented singer of the totally kickass band Garbage. well, remember Shirley's look back in, oh, say, 1997, when my crush started?

back then it was all about the eyeliner; Shirley was famous for her "raccoon-goth" eye makeup, as Spin magazine put it (i read the hell out of that issue, with Shirley on the cover...ay yi yi). and i remember going to the hair salon back then and wanting a haircut just like Shirley had (which unfortunately was impossible because my hair has always been to damn wavy and now its CURLING)...so i think its entirely possible that i adopted the eyeliner in an attempt to emulat Shirley...even though the first time i wore black eyeliner was in the eighth grade i think (before my short stint as a prep...ewwy, those khakis are GONE) and i had the haircut experience when i was in sixth or seventh grade...you never know. i mean, i don't do the goth thing anymore, but i don't like going out without my eyeliner (i will if i really don't have time or i'm sick or exhausted...if i don't get a chance to put it on before i go over to Zack's he asks me to put on my eye makeup when i get there because he doesn't recognize me without it...honestly i don't recognize myself with it either). so maybe thats why i keep the eyeliner...because subconsciously i still wish i could look like Shirley. you know, i'd be a pretty good candidate for tattooed makeup. not that i want a needle anywhere near my eyes...i don't even know if it would be cheaper for me to get the eyeliner tattooed on, seeing as how i only buy Wet n Wild eyeliner (cuz its a buck, works well and isn't tested on bunnies or other cuddly critters) and i only have to buy it a few times a year, so even if i bought a new pencil every month it would still just be $12 a year, and the procedure for a makeup tattoo is probly a whole hell of a lot of money i don't have. plus like i said, i'd rather not have any needles around my eyes. i can deal with needles all right, but not my eyeball being pierced and all the fluid gushing out down my face. no thanks.